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got this from michelle

2005-01-19T17:58:05Z

*LOVE, SEX AND ROMANCE QUIZ*
Name:	Melissa
Birthdate:	May 7, 86
Hair:	dark brown
Eyes:	brown
Height:	5'3
Gender:	female
How many true relationships have you had?:	true?....like 1 i guess, maybe 2
Have you ever been in love?:	i dont know--so i guess not
What's your idea of a perfect date?:	nothing particular, just having a really good time and not worrying about anything...i guess
Where's your favorite place to be kissed?:	ummm....forehead and neck
How many sexual partners have you had?:	uno
How many people have you kissed?:	uhh...like 12 (yes im kissing whore :\ )
Do you like to make the first move?:	no. not unless im REALLY comfortable with the person
Are you a snuggler?:	i CAN be
Do you kiss on the first date?:	sure, why not?
Where is the best place you've ever hooked up?:	um....the bed, i suppose
Do you consider yourself to be romantic?:	not at all
Are you an angel or a devil in the sack?:	what do you want me to be?? --jk..it depends
Would you ever pay someone for sex?:	no.
Would you ever let someone pay YOU for sex?:	how much are we talkin?
Do you keep your eyes open when you kiss?:	no. thats weird
What was your most embarrassing sexual moment?:	um....i dont know.
Have your parents ever caught you in a compromising position?:	no, thank god
Have you ever performed a striptease?:	yeah.
How about a lapdance?:	not yet.
Have you ever received a lapdance?:	no
Do you like sexual contact?:	yesss
Are you straight, gay or bi?:	straight
Have you ever made out with a member of the opposite sex?:	plenty of times
Are you a giver or a taker?:	taker, but i can give too
What do you look for in a girlfriend/boyfriend?:	i dont know, im not right now
Do you think you've met the person you'll spend the rest of your life with?:	not even close
Do you know who your bridesmaids and groomsmen would be?:	michelle and krystle for sure....
Have you ever regretted a hook-up?:	no way
Have you ever cheated on a significant other?:	kinda :\
Have you ever hooked-up with someone already in a relationship?:	heh heh heh.
Have you ever cried over a member of the opposite sex?:	yes.
Have you ever had your heart broken?:	uh huh.
Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?:	nope
Would you date or marry someone if your parents didn't accept them?:	yeah. IM marrying them, not my paretns
How about if your friends didn't accept them?:	yes
What's the worst relationship you ever had?:	i would say....jeremy (thats if you call it one) hahahaha
Have you ever done anything sexual while on the road?:	yes
Would you kiss someone if you didn't love them?:	ive kissed plenty of people i didnt love already.
Who told you all about sex?:	i dont really remember.
Are you always horny?:	no
Are you a flirt?:	can be
Are you a tease?:	when the time calls
Do you prefer to chase or BE chased?:	be chased
Do you prefer morning or evening hook-ups?:	depends
Have you ever pulled an all-nighter with a member of the opposite sex, and woke up in each others arms?:	no
How old were you at the age of your first kiss?:	um....like 13 maybe
How old were you when you lost your virginity?:	18
Do you sometimes wish you could change that?:	nope
Do you enjoy being in a relationship?:	not right now
Are you currently in one?:	no sir
Has anyone ever fallen in love with you?:	yes
Have you ever said "I Love You" and not meant it?:	no
Are you "noisy" when you get heated?:	heh heh heh
What is your kissing pet peeve?:	sloppy and slobbery kisseds. makes me want to gag
Do you think you're a good kisser?:	um.. ive been told i am, but i dont know
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sorry

2005-01-03T07:10:10Z

i just want to say im sorry to anyone who i've ever hurt in one way or another. my concious is killing me right now, and although this doesnt really help, at least i got it out.

destinys_ruin @ 2004-11-30T14:33:00

2004-11-30T22:58:52Z

im so frustrated and stressed out lately. i just want to crawl into a whole and die. all my bad decisions are finally catching up to me. and now, after years of, "melissa, you need to participate more in school" or "melissa, study more or else you're not going to get into the college you want." i am regretfully admitting that my mom was right. well, i knew she was right then, what i dont know is why i didnt listen.
I'm starting Southwestern next month (January). my orientation was yesterday and i spoke with a counselor and told him that i want to transfer to NYU or UCLA after my general ed is done. So basically, he told me to call NYU (since they dont have a transferring "agreement") and find out the pre-req's and ask for a catalog and get all the information. i got home today and called but no one was answering, so i came online to see if i could find out on the site. then i was dumb enough to look at the undergrad application--and there's no way in hell im going to get in. my entire 2 years of high school and 1 1/2 years of almost-independent study i've done NOTHING. my grades werent that great because i was a lazy-ass, therefore it doesnt really matter if i was in honors or ap classes. i didnt take the AP test because ap classes were a bit of a challenge and honors was the easiest thing ever. but still, i couldnt even do my homework. i didnt do ANY extra-curricular stuff. so what the hell am i good for now?

and then....i just sent in the payment for my speeding ticket and now im just waiting for it to go through and get cleared. $370 because i was being stupid for like 2 seconds on an EMPTY road. they said im not eligible for traffic school because of my speed so that means my insurance is going to go up too. i cant even afford it now. oh and not only that, but my car is a piece of shit. there's ALWAYS something wrong with it and i havent even had it for a year yet. the other night it wasnt starting (it wasnt my battery. i think it was either the starter or something, but who knows. its in the shop right now, but to be honest i hope they say they cant fix it (yeah right) or that it blows up or gets stolen or SOMETHING. i just don't want it anymore. i dont want to drive. i want to just move to New York, go to the school i want have an awesome job and take the taxi or subway. that would make me very happy. --oh and have enough money so i dont have to worry every day about stupid stuff. i have hardly any christmas money now. i was going to get chris a futon, but now i cant afford it. and i was going to get my mom this 200$ mixer set she wants, but now i cant afford that either. i dont like to worry about money, but ive been saving to move out for about two years now and i have less money than when i started. i just feel like im going to be here forever. im not going to get into the schools i want--so that wont help me get out. and i dont have money to move, so i cant get out that way either.

i just dont want to worry about this stuff anymore. its depressing. i feel like complete shit.

jeucnt

2004-11-13T08:28:14Z

IM SO BORED!!! ok i really have absolutly *nothing* to post right now, but im just really bored and had/have nothing better to do, plus i havent posted on here in forever so why not? oh shit i forgot to take my birth control...o well im only an hour late and its not like im having sex soon... so whatev. ummmm ok i guess thats all guys. how lame.

ps....whoa they changed the part where you put in your mood and stuff....interesting. and if you change around the last 4 letters in my "subject" it says cunt.

people suck.

2004-10-08T05:18:01Z

ok so yes.... im not happy. a couple of days ago i got into an accident coming home from work. now those of you who know how i drive (michelle) are going to figure that i was speeding and on someones ass when it happened--but on the contrary, that wasnt the case at all.
my car has been acting up (including what i thought was the breaks)for a while now and so a couple of days before the accident my dad took my car in to have it looked at and fixed/tuned up and what not. the next day, my dad told me the guys said the breaks were fine, but the car was still going fine and everything was perfect. so the next day my breaks start acting kinda weird again when im on my way to work so i drive EXTRA careful and keep extra distance from people. on my way home they were better, but i was still driving carefully and then at the exit to come home im slowing down since it was backed up and my breaks freak out and dont catch or something and i hit the BEAMER in front of me--yeah, the beamer (of course). so i put i small crack in her fender...NOTHING huge at all. so i get out of the car and do the usual blah blah blah... and she starts yelling at me telling me i was trying to cut her off....WTF--um no, i really didnt.
claims company calls me that night and just does the usual check up stuff and insurance company calls me in the morning doing their thing....and then after asking some questions she gets to the fun part "are you aware that you're insurance was cancelled on 10-02?" -- no it was not because then why the hell was i being harrassed about my 'late car/insurance' payment for?!-- "no, it shouldnt be i think my dad just went and paid it a couple of weeks ago" and then she said it "ok well, ill need to speak with your parents to figure this out before we know exactly whats going on" yeah, you're right i hadnt told my parents yet. i was waiting until that day to see how much my insurance would be going up and everything. so i told my parents and the both (ESPECIALLY my dad) took it MUCH better than i thought.
i ended up being wrong about the part where i thought my dad had paid them. but evidently he hadnt seen a bill or anything from them in a month or so and whatnot... so the company said they'll take two weeks to decide if my accident is going to be put on the insurance or not.
now today i come home from doing some stuff and i guess the insurance lady called and said that the girl is claiming "injuries". if you guys only knew how "hard" i hit her. i barely hit her hard enough to make a mark, so i know the whole injury thing is a heaping load of bullshit. the insurance people want to see my car tomorrow, so yeah.
i guess when my dad found out about the claim he sarted slamming things around and yelling at my mom saying "LOOK WHAT YOUR DAUGHTER DID NOW I CANT BELIEVE THIS. IF THEY DECIDE THAT SHE DID HIT HER HARD ENOUGH ITS GOING TO COST SO MUCH MONEY. AND OF COURSE THIS WOULD HAPPENED TO YOUR DAUGHTER" and she told him "she's your daughter too." and what does he say??? "FINE OUR DAUGHTER" my mommy was trying to tell him how "it was an accident, it could have happened to anyone and you know people, they'll just make stuff up." and i guess he kept going on about how pissed he was and especially about how much money it would cost. "YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. ITS GOING TO COST SO MUCH MONEY. THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS. THEY COULD TAKE OUR HOUSE AWAY" my mom: "HEH...yeah martin, they're going to take our house away." "IM SERIOUS, AND YOU JUST DONT UNDERSTAND DO YOU??? ITS COMING OUT OF OUR POCKETS AND ALL YOU CAN DO IS DEFEND HER." and this is one of the reasons i love my mom: "YOU KNOW WHAT...IM HAPPY SHE GOT IN THIS CAR ACCIDENT BECAUSE ALL YOU EVER CARE ABOUT IS MONEY."
so now i have absolutely no money. especially since i paid my car today and that left me with nothing (thats an entirely other story by itself) so now that Chris promised me a real Chirstmas, i have NO money to buy presents with or anything. and me not getting even 100$ on my paychecks doesnt help much either.

WOW!!!! im updating my journaaal.

2004-08-29T05:56:49Z

yeah so um...im updating. amazing isnt it? yeah, i think so too. so um...tomorrow is me and chris' 3 months. yeah its not a long time, but it feels like it :) michelle says "thats cool for you" so HAH losers, it is cool.....ooook and enough of me being a retard--ahem. tomorrow is my last day at work too. i quit last week so im get my last paycheck next sunday and then after i use/save that, im broke as shit which brings me to my next exciting event in my life: im starting school. yes, i know i said i was taking a semester off, but guess what--im not. partially because i realized that i kind of WANT to go, but also (and MAYBE mostly...or just half---ly:) because as long as im in school my parents will support me...and seeing as how i dont have a job after tomorrow (although i am looking) ill be really poor and im going to (sad to say it) need their support. so yes...thats all.

oh and about me not EVER updating...see my computer is a piece of shit. no, seriously. well technical seriousness... but yeah, and it takes forever and always kicks me out of programs and such so...i try to avoid it, but when its fixed ill update more. --or i wont cuz i have a life. (that was supposed to be WAY sarcastic) ok bye

update...

2004-07-30T18:53:38Z

yes michelle, i didnt want you to find out this way, but im in love with derick. i hope you dont mind too much. :P

ok anyways, i just got back from Nevada last night. i went with Chris and we were there for a week. it was fun. i went camping for my first time ever. and that was cool. we also went up to Tahoe and went swimming and stuff. the rest of the time was spent just hanging out with his friends. He has really cool friends too so it was really fun.
yeah, yesterday was our 2 months. its not a big deal, i know, but it seems longer to both of us. but we're still happy and i just like him more and more every day, so thats good. he got some really pretty roses on our way home. heh it was cute. he makes me really happy. i can be really upset and once im with him, everythings fine. im still watching out and all, but hes the first guy that ive been like this with since mike. but im really happy i met chris and everything is working out so far.
herm...what else. melissa's back!!! im so happy. she MIGHT come live with me on the 13'th of august. thats when she turns 18. her mom is still being a psycho bitch though. the only way i get to talk to her is through email, which shes not even supposed to be using. so yeah. thats that.
i dont know if there's really anything else to write about now. im going to hang out with my mom in a few hours, so i need to go start cleaning and getting ready. im going to try to start updating more. i know i havent been the best at it lately. especially considering its been over a month since my last post. but eh...life happends, and right now i dont mind it at all, so we'll see how this goes. anyways. talk to you guys later.

whats new....

2004-06-22T23:12:12Z

....so i havent been around for a long time-- a REALLY long time. so--i officially graduated last friday. it was weird though, i didnt feel like i belonged there. but its ok, its over now.
so for graduation i got a computer and desk and whatnot...so that was/is nice. now i dont have to fight for the computer or deal with that piece of shit. i got a total of about........300 dollars from the rest of my family
after graduation me and chirs left for Reno/Carson for his sisters wedding witch was on saturday. the drive was about 8 1/2 hours. we left at 10:30'ish...maybe 11 and got there between 7:30 and 8 in the morning. so yeah. when we were getting ready to go to the wedding chris brought me a necklace that he got for me. its so pretty.
his family and his friends are sooooo incredibly cool. im kind of jeleous. i shouldnt be though. and thats that. the wedding (and the weekend in general) was REALLY fun and im glad i went.
ok so yeah...i think thats all i have to update about right now.

ok bye

I LOVE YOU MICHELLE!!!!!!!!

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2004-06-14T21:25:03Z

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im so scene it hurts

2004-06-08T20:13:24Z

...and my most emo-est:

yes--thats whats new in my life....

um....yes.

2004-05-27T05:25:17Z

aw guys.... <3 <3 <3

i really like him and i miss him. but we're going out tomorrow after work, so :D

i spent the night at his house last night with averil and steve. we didnt plan to but all of us just fell asleep watching a movie. so they had to wake up at 4 cuz of work and averil had to open the cafe today at 7 so we left. i came home after dropping her off around 5 and went to bed but i couldnt sleep cuz for the past two nights i was with chris and it felt weird sleeping alone.

ok well...i guess thats my update.

destinys_ruin @ 2004-05-22T13:30:00

2004-05-22T21:03:17Z

ive been thinking lately...a lot. i guess it really isnt doing me much good because its getting me depressed (again). this time, i think ive figured out whats wrong though. i always complain about how im so lonely and whatnot--but when it comes to it, i act like i dont really want to be unlonely. (yeah, the ones that really know me are probably thinking "no shit"). and i guess thats the point...ive alienated myself from everyone and everything that being lonely is normal for me and its just become something of comfort to me. i dont really know how to explain it, but part of me doesnt want anyone--a big part of me. and i dont know why. it seems like i would be able to fix it by just making an effort or something, but that part of me is holding me back, and when i do make an effort, it seems pointless. everything still feels the same as before. im still alone and comfortable. and the depression i guess is just another console for me. i know this sounds overly morose and well--dumb, but i dont know. i guess i dont care.

i really want to get on with my life. the more im here the more upset i am. i havent exactly been the person i want to be lately either. and im NOT going to go into detail about that. im really upset at some things ive done the past couple of weeks. But i dont really know if i want to change it.

ok well, im not making any sence at all. im just going to go and think more.

destinys_ruin @ 2004-05-12T23:21:00

2004-05-13T06:32:32Z

i went to TJ last night with Meghan and Claudia. we went to Hustler too. originally we were just gonna go to Hustler cuz of the whole me being 18 thing, so yeah. we went there, went upstairs to the little "porn/adult" area. then went to Vons to see Kristin. and then went to TJ spontaneously. we just went for some tacos, which were fucking GREAT, btw. then we ended up at Porkys, the 80's club ive been DIYING to go to. and it was sooooooooooo fun. yeah, i had a bit to drink, but i wasnt really drunk. not like last time. i was just really buzzed. so yeah.... i had a LOT of fun last night. we're supposed to go again tomorrow night.

here's some pictures from last night. sorry, ive been going crazy with my new camera lately,

marjan sent me a calendar

2004-05-11T22:41:27Z

here's some random pictures from the last year or so.

me, yalda, marjan, sarah, lua, and gabby at marjan's graduation last summer

yalda, marjan and me at La Jolla last summer

marjan, yalda, and me at yaldas last summer

marjan, yalda, and me around thanksgiving last year.

...i just dont know where i want it.

update

2004-05-11T20:10:45Z

undawears

destinys_ruin @ 2004-05-09T15:14:00

2004-05-09T22:44:21Z

hey guys. somebody take me to prom... PLEAAAASE i want to cry, seriously. everybodys talking about it and stuff and im just here by myself.

anyways....as you know my birthday was on friday. yesterday my dad's psycho family came over. i got a digital camera (finally) but it didnt come with the cd rom so i have to take it back. argh. um i also got 120 dollars. and then michelle, my love, got me a bag (which i LOVE), a picture frame, and something else, but i forget cuz i love the bag too much :D ok so yeah.

after that, me and michelle left and went to my work so i could say hi to kristin, meghan, and claudia. michelle filled out an application which i SUPER cool cuz she'll probably get the job and itll be fun. :D :D um, then we went to dericks to see his cousin's boyfriend who played Leonardo on the live/people movie Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, waaaay back in the day. then David went over and we all went to Cold Stone and got free ice cream from Dolan and ran around the Whaley House (a "haunted" house over here for those of you that dont know).

tonight im going to Barona with kristin and maybe meghan to gamble a bit, since i can now and all...hah hah hah. the joys of being 18..................... *sighs*

i didnt get to see friends because i work :(

2004-05-07T07:37:44Z

ok well...ive been 18 for about 32 minutes now.

happy birthday to me..................

my parents might be getting a divorce :\
in some ways i really dont care because its THEIR marriage and they need to do what makes them happy. but, the only thing that bothers me is that if they DO get a divorce, im gonna have to chose one or the other...so i'll NEED to move out. but i have no one to really move with. oh well. we'll see what happens.

um, im not going to mexico tonight. --i'll still get drunk if i can, but no mexico. we're rescheduling that.

ok im tired.

beach DAY!!

2004-04-27T18:01:00Z

well today im going to the beach :D :D :D yay. --well then i have work at 4. but still. itll be cool cuz me and meghan and maybe claudia and maybe melissa and maybe paul and some other people are gonna go too and then me and meghan and claudia (if she comes) are gonna go to work since we all close together tonight.

um yeah i worked out this morning. if i can just keep it up until the summer really hits. i say that everytime and never stick to it though, but then again, if my uncle comes over every day to tell me im fat, then maybe it'll serve as some motivation? --yeah, he was over on sunday and i see him as im leaving for work and after he says hi to me his first words were "you've gotten fat"...except in farsi and i just said "what" cuz i didn't believe he just said that, and then to make me feel even better, my mom decided to tell him "not to bother her about it" still in farsi acting like i dont understand her or something, so the most i could do was scowl at them and continue onto my car and just drive away even though i wanted to say something so bad, but no him being my persian uncle i have to show respect and just smile and agree with everything he says. *insert bitching moment:* to tell you the truth, i know i dont have the nicest body. i have pudge and my legs are nasty. my ass is too big and my boobs are too small. my teeth are fucked up and my mouth is too small. i could go on forever about this shit. its not as if i go around acting like im hot shit...and when i do its COMPLETELY messing around (michelle is someone who can testify to that). so why the fuck do people feel its their obligation to rub my faults in my face? sorry i wasn't born some fucking super model. sorry i can't become some annorexic "model" figure, but seriously just get the fuck over it. i'm incredibly sick of hearing all this bullshit from my own "family". if i embarrass them so much then they don't need to act like they know me. my mom is constantly telling me how i need to work out and that my stomach is getting fat and my legs are getting big and then when i give her a hug she pinches my sides and says "you need to lose this." then she goes on and on: whenever we go out she feels its necessary to tell me that i need to dress nice and i need to wear make up and i need to do my hair and then my uncle is coming over ... acting like he still lives here or something...telling me ive gotten fat and i need to work out. well FUCK THEM. i like food and i don't like to throw up. im not the most active person around but i do more than they do, especially my mom. and i'm not high maintenance. i'm not one of those girls that has to curl/straighten/crunch their hair everyday and then cake my face on and where uncomfortable clothes and uncomfortable shoes just to make people look at me, i don't even like people looking at me. i don't know where they find room to talk because there really isn't any.

and so now that i've put myself in a bad mood, im going to go get ready to go to the beach where i can cover up my fat, ugly body.

im not as incocent as was

2004-04-24T20:55:05Z

i did it guys...

i finally got drunk.

it was fun as hell but nothing i could ever do regularly. i have a headache now :\ i couldn't walk at all last night either--hell i couldnt even sit up. michelle said that i kept falling over and petting her head. i dont remember that part though, i remember most everything else i think though. um yeah. so that was my night last night.

aaannnnd....my manager said i dont have to go to work today so YIPEE!!! :) :)

and even better than not having work: i FINALLY got The Cure's greatest hits cd....FINALLY

destinys_ruin @ 2004-04-20T17:04:00

2004-04-21T00:29:00Z

well yay. prom is less than a month away ... that is going to be the funnest night of my life *rolls eyes*

um, i have a second interview on thursday for this job at some restraunt, so thats good.

what else. i'm unaccomplished and i have no direction in life. just thought i'd let you all know.

im going to michelle's on thursday night. but MICHELLE: i have an eye appointment on friday morning at like 10 or something soooooooo i could either just come back thursday night and then if you want we can hang out after that on friday or i could leave early friday morning (which i dont really want to) ooor we can just completely reschedule and do it friday/saturday, but i have work at 4 on saturday. its up to you, just let me know.

i got a new bra yesterday from Victoria's Secret. i love it. :) its my only pretty bra.

can you tell im updating cuz i have nothing else to do? well, if you can't, thats what im doing. today has been one of the most boring days--EVER. and sadly, im pretty sure this isnt going to be the last day like this before i start school again. yeah so ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm bye

pumas are cool

2004-04-17T19:26:34Z

lets see...where did i last leave off about my life.......i finished school, (i mentioned that, and btw, thanks for the comments) i dyed my hair dark red. yes, but its too red, and i personally think it looks like shit, but eh--it grows out and fades, and if thats not enough, i can always dye it back.
im really REALLY bored. figures that the first saturday i have off EVER (since i started working at the cafe) i would have absolutly nothing to do. --ok, i have something to do but i dont feel like it. Cece (my manager) and melissa (my co-worker) said i should go to the races with them and some other people we know tonight for Cece's birthday, but i dont really feel like it. i hung out with them last night and it was fun. i got home at like 2.
i got a Deathcab cd yesterday. Photoalbum. so yay, that was nice. i also got to hang out with my mom yesterday morning. we went downtown and to hillcrest. and i bought us lunch. ooh, and i got some new pumas. :D

oh, and 20 days til my birthday

done done done

2004-04-15T16:43:56Z

I FINISHED SCHOOL. no more highschool........EVER :D :D :D

im weird

2004-04-07T08:07:16Z

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE ARE JUST ANNOYING!!!!!!!!!!!!haksjfhalsdvbfg

anyways...the real reason for my post--ok, you're right, there isn't a "real" reason, but lets just call it the real pointless stuff that belongs in this so called "update."

after work last night i went to Michelle's and today we played with side-walk chalk. it was great fun. we covered her ENTIRE driveway, and she has a big one...driveway that is. um i got a raise two days ago. aaaaannnnnnnnnnnd i dont work til FRIDAY. can you believe it!?!?!?! thats 3 days off, i NEVER get that. its wonderful. :D

if you havent clicked on the many plugs ive put in for The Mercy Kiss you need to go now and listen to "Truly." best song. yes. go now. good.

good lord. i just realized that in EXACTLY a month, i will no longer be a kid. im going be and adult. old. shit. 17 never seemed so young. *sigh* now comes college and voting and more bills and the real world......and TJ--ok, i could have gone to Mexico before being 18, but now its legal and all and....yeah.
aw aryn, i LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you totally helped me figure out what im doing on my birthday :) :) so heres the plan: me and krystle and cristy (and michelle, but i dont think you'll go) are gonna go down to Rosarito eat LOTS of tacos (they're SOOOOOOOOOO good in mexico, no shit), then go to some clubs and what not and drink a bit or whatev. and then go to the beach for the sunrise and have lobster for breakfast and go swimming and maybe surfing, then come home!!!!! its gonna be sooooooo much fun. plus me drinking there isnt illegal, so HAH. fuck im excited guys.

i wish i could sing. or play guitar really well or the drums. or take good pictures or draw/paint. or write. or dance. i just need talent. i honestly have none. im not genuinely good at anything. i cant sing, period. i dont have time for guitar or drums......or money for drums. im not a photographer or painter. i cant write, and ive tried dancing for so long and none of it paid off. i just need SOMETHING.
and i want to fix my teeth, and i dont want my nose to be so big...or my ass for that matter. or my legs. ARGH BLAH.

so much excitement, yet so much blahness--im in a weeeeeird mood today, can you tell? i think im PMS'ing (im sure you're all glad to know now) but whatev, thats all the stuff on my mind tonight.

pictures for all

2004-04-05T21:51:36Z

yes, she has saran wrap around her head.

i have more pictures from the beach and from Orange County, but i dont have time to post them all now. notice my bangs in the first two pictures? yeah...i cut them but messed up so now i look like a boy. FUN! :)
and now its time to go to work and close with the creepy, annoying new guy. i yelled at him two nights ago, and i dont yell at anybody. i dont like him at ALL, and i like everybody. bye

oooooh my gosh.

2004-04-05T08:16:48Z

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says.
"...its also true that there is usually some point of entry into the tradition...."

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
the desk lamp

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
i havent watched tv for a while...i dont remember

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:
12:55 am

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
12:54 damn, i just missed it. im usually good at this stuff

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
my typing

7: When did you last step outside? what were you doing?
getting out of my car to come inside around 12:30

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?
my friends list

9: What are you wearing?
these tiny shorts i wear to bed and a tank top

10: Did you dream last night?
Melissa came back

11: When did you last laugh?
right when i dropped krystle off at her house

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?
nothing but paint

13: Seen anything weird lately?
hm, yeah probably have

14: What do you think of this quiz?
im just bored

15: What is the last film you saw?
i guess Super Troopers when i watched it with Andrew and Junior. thats sad, it was a long time ago too.

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
id have to say..........an apartment

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
you dont know that i dont say anything or show anything a lot of the time when im mad unless im really, *REALLY* close with the person...and even then i dont sometimes

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
WORLD PEACE. I'm serious. <------ same here. me and michelle can do it together :)

19: Do you like to dance?
YES!!!!!!!!

20: George Bush: is he a power-crazy nutcase or some one who is finally doing something that has needed to be done for years?
i fucking hate him..with a passion. ---ok no, i shouldn't say that...i just hate what he's doing with a passion and wish i could sock his face in. but thats just me

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?
Markela or Madison

21: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
Kaylan or Cyrus (but i like kaylan better

22: Would you ever consider living abroad?
omg YES. in greece or australia or england. not forever, but for a few months, a year at the most maybe.

23: What is the last movie quote you heard?
i dont remember
______________________________________________
1. What is your middle name?
Natasha

2. If you had been born the other sex, did your parents tell you what your name would have been?
no, my mom said she "knew it was going to be a girl"

3. Do you have children and if so, what are their names?
nope

4. If you were to ever have a child or more children, what would you name them?
uh, didnt we go over this??? Markela and Madison for a girl and Kaylan and Cyrus for a boy

5. Most people know their mother's maiden name, but do you know your grandmothers' maiden names?
Mohajeri is my mom's mom's maiden name, but i dont know the other one

6. Did you have an imaginary friend as a child?
no, i make up stuff and play though as in....... act. i was a weeeeiiiird kid.

7. What was the name of your first pet?
hm, i dont know. we had fish first.

8. What was the name of the first person you ever kissed?
jeremy........ michelle SHUT THE FUCK UP

9. What was the name of the school you attended as a child?
Discovery Elementry, Bonita Vista Middle, then/now Eastlake High

10. What was/is the name of your English teacher(s) in high school?
Freshman year - Mrs. Gilmore.......uuuuugh
Sophomore year - Mrs. Karg, she kicked ass
Junior year - Mrs. Hughes on semester (she was waaayyy too perky) and then Mrs. Zoz for the other semester, she was REALLY cool
Senior year - i had Dr. Sorge and he was weird, i liked him, but then i didnt. but now i basically independent study and i finished my english credit.

11. Do you name your vehicles? What are the name(s)?
yeah, i need a name for mine. Pablo was its temporary name, but i want something with meaning.

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